Assalamualaikum and hello everyone,
There are another 46 days to go before graduation.
I hope the days could go by faster so I can be free from all this.
But I know that it would be a lot more meaningful if I enjoyed every bit of everything left.
So, I don’t want the time to go faster.
I want it to be slower, steadier, calmer.
I was really young when I came here, fresh out of the secondary school having no idea on how to do an assignment.
I never knew what plagiarism is, then.
I was very naive, very innocent but very kind as well.
I never had an expectation of how it’s going to turn out or what would I become after choosing this path.
I had no idea. zero.
I was already independent when I left the school,
It was something that I learnt from the experiences I had to face.
You know, when you realized your life situation is, you learn to adapt, you learn to compromise.
Along the way, I earned deeper understanding of struggles.
Not that I am saying my struggle was tougher than anyone else, but everyone has their own level of difficulties in life.
46 more days,
and I will free. I am happy, but I am sad as well.
I learned a lot and still learning. I’ve made millions of mistakes which some I took as learning experiences and some, I’ve (or would rather) forgotten.
Talking about forgetting stuff, sometimes I feel like I’ve forgotten a lot of things that had happened around me. I focused a lot on growing myself, chasing my passions.
A lot of times, I think I was being ignorant, I don’t ask people’s businesses.
My principle in life is ‘Never ask questions you don’t want to be asked’.
Next year would be a totally different life, and I don’t know if I am ready to embrace the change.
I think I never would, but I know that I will be okay. Always okay.
Just like how I did when I first came here,
I never knew what’s to come, I just knew that it’s another phase on the line., for me.
My lecturer was right, embrace the change. Embrace everything.